I’m just a girl,
I’m just a girl, who is 17 years of age,
Wondering through this world
Not thinking of what she wants
Walking through the desert
Sweaty hands and feet sore me.
I need more
I need more than just the words “I love you”
Dating boys, who should obviously be…? MEN!
Kissing and telling is kind of my thing..
I’ve always been that way
Always wanting new “toys”.
I am allowed.
I am allowed to follow my heart
To wish upon a star
For the boy a makes me fall? Seriously?
That’s okay because I’ll know what I want
Someone to make me go completely crazy.
I’ve written plenty
I’ve written plenty of poems…
Of my dad’s suicide, to broken pieces of my heart,
My mom is one of my poetry idols
She works a lot, so..
I don’t know if their good..
I was so young
I was so young from the very start
Where I had to be a “big kid”
Crying with my mother, and helping her,
Going through her depression with her
Crying myself to sleep, hoping things would change.
I love my family
They mean the WORLD to me
They make me mad at times
But they make me smile anyways
All I want is their trust and love.
Maybe one day..
Maybe one day I could find out
How this life came to be
Following up from the death of a father…
A man who loved his daughter
Who died because of false ways?
I’m 17 years old
I’m 17 years old with a life full of sadness and hatred
There is so much to learn
From the pain and sorrows
I can learn from this
I just know I can, It’s not to late
Boys are so…
Boys are so weird…
They say they love you
But then soon disappear.
They fade into the cold darkness
Whispering soft goodbyes
Dyeing everyday inside from all the bullshit lies
Those past friends have said
To much lies have taken in my brain
Lies hurt the most when they come from the most lovable ones
I can relate. I said a lot of lies in my life.
My idol is Sarah Kay
How she speaks is amazing
The way the moves her body that creates me
Her voice echoes in my mind
Helping me become a better writer.
My mom has been so much
I should know..
I was right there beside her
Praying the pain would end
Broken hearts became our thing.
My father died when I was a year and half
Suicide was his main thought
No one could have saved him
I was I could, somehow have saved my father
I learned from his death.
Following love is that a feeling? I really don’t know
I COULD fall in love again.
I could pull my heart out of my chest
And make it chose its lover
Calling it to come to me from within
No one knows
No one knows just how much pain I’m in,
Scars, shattered heart, mini devils
Do you see how much I feel?
Just look at me. I’m a mess.
I could just lay here. Sleeping.
There is so much more I could say.
But I don’t want to bore you
I hope you like my Video and add me on face-book
-Inspired by: My Mom, and Spoken out Poet- Sarah Kay.
I live behind closed doors,
Where my love over powers my world,
Where my stuff animals come alive and talk to me,
Where my pain and loss of hope would just disappear.
I could be in this world alone,
No one to fight with about who I was
No one to tell me how to act
No one to tell how I felt about my personality.
I would find my way into a fantasy bubble
Where the unicorns and fairies excited
Where the only magic could help me FIGHT back
Where the feeling safe motto could come again.
Some place i know, there i can see it,
among the dangled trees,
flapping like dolphins to welcome me home,
slowly walking beyond the flowers of love.
No one really knows who I am,
and I know that they won’t understand,
but just maybe, just maybe I could find that one,
my prince, my prince and shining armor.
He could come find me,
in this bubble i call my cell,
a home i might imagine even more beautiful then outside,
that will be the best day of my life.
Along the meadow of lust and despair,
I found myself looking into a globe,
I found myself wondering into another world,
I was the only one to catch the falling pieces.
Maybe i was just a kid,
when i felt that sorrow I feel now,
When I felt alone and no one to love me,
When I only had my stuffed animals.
I am older now,
I believe in fairies,
I know that unicorns will take me far away from here,
I love how i can create such a magical world of wonder.
After all.. I do live behind closed doors.
- I don't want to keep going.. I just want to take him and run away.. far.. away.
- It has come to my attention that my life will be filled with guys that will come and go.
- I'm 17.. I think i deserve to be getting stoned or drunk, or kissing other guys.. and partying..
- but that is not my life.. I dream for that! but I know inside that might never happen for me..
- I like POTATOS!!!!!!!!!!! (Blue Monster)